Depress

I dont ever know when this begin

feeling sad and empty 

alone

lonely

everything seems wrong

like i cant handle all the things happened daily

much easy to be annoyed with people

silent anger all the time

but

i just cannot express it

it was so hard

just to tell someone everything

so I like to keep it only for me

Quietly bare with these feelings

and 

end up in the wrong way

everything just sucks and sucks

then

not to tell anyone 

that feeling like to die at the moment

dont know what to do

feeling soulless 

depressing enough

 but I literally smile and laugh outside

....................

Dinner batch

Salam.

Yesterday we're having our dinner batch for the 2nd time.

Like once a year

Exactly one dinner for one year.

I dont even know why how it turn out like that 

LOL

but

Dinner seems attempting to me

The food and how people getting dressin up

so,I love the idea for having once a year.

The theme for the night was act RETRO

Nostalgic Night the other one

guys seems dress up well

but the girls only limited to jubah and baju kurung

depressing enough,huh?

So,

me myself just normally wearing baju kurung 

that dont even related to the theme

the other girls too maybe?

except some of them wearing vaguely 

like very vaguely

It just a dinner to introducing the batch's organization 

and

to mingle the medical and dentisty student

Kind of formal a lil

thats why I dont care enough 

except taking pictures here and there 

To say the truth,

It was a good and enjoying dinner 

yet they put some rules 

because the culture of Malaysian student here

'not to mixed with boys.bla bla bla bla...

it is for our own good.I know :)

the goodies.so in love with this

feeling very grateful and regretful last night

as received many gifts from them

but i dont even give to anyone

fuhhh.

rasa nak nangis sebab terharu sgt ;'0

sorrylah kawan2 yg bagi tapi tak dapat balik gift

i swear i taking photo like crazy during the dinner

the place was too crowded

and 

me and my housemates are so lazy to find a place

so,bunches of selca turn out

hahahaha

our tablemate ,

Fea the usher(mind the spelling) and iela.

Cantik kan ?Asdfghjkl

 My lovely friends throughout 2 years

except ayu not here.

Ignore my stupid face :O

lastly,my fav selfie buddies,mek na.

so,that's it.

a lil bit of our dinner.

till next time :)

A rocket to the moon

Salam

Yeay,here we're again.

Till now, a lot of things happened.

Spring break finally end.

Muka habis burn pergi main pantai Hanoville 

then

mcq Epidemiology which just end

Next 2 days,I'll have Arab quiz and clinical skill test.

Okay,busy gila kot minggu ni -.-

Back to basic

reading the title post 

 I dont ever know how to describe

but I am sure enough that I'm living my life with bands

dari sekolah rendah,high school till now 

Simple Plan,Linkin Park,MCR etc

Hmmmph

Let say that a normal girl will never know what I already knew about bands

Tak boleh nak resist dah,nak buat macam mana.
Whatever lah.Masing-masing

Heeeee.

Besides,they're more inspiring

their lyrics,the songs

and there will be at least one handsome guy in a band

Hahahaha.Ignore the last

Anyway,the true reason why this post are here

because

depresssssssss

baru find out A Rocket To The Moon breaking up

;'(

They're like my superhero during high school

Helped me go on with all the bullshit before

Alahhh.Why lah break up????

Dah la random
Rasa macam baru keluar single :O

Found out through these

and 

I know the rumors are unexpectedly true after reading 

WHOAAAA(0.0)

Their songs kept playing in mind since the evening

I remembered the first time I knew them

from

their EP 'Like We Used To'

Already 3 years since that 

Cepatnya masa 

I gonna miss them

.One of my favourite bands for a long time. Shame to see them break-up.

Pleasee come back

I learnt that everything not permanent in this world.

But we should try to make a life with the time given

ARTTM

One of my favourite bands for a long time. Shame to see them break-up.

Pleasee come back

ARTTM just a totally a good band.
Still can't accept the fact they're disbanded.
:'((((((

Gonna hear all of their song throughout all the night

Relationship

Salam.
A lil bit disappointed for now.The election for GE13 don't turn out well.Yeah,Malaysian knows who.Too many corruption and all I can say whatever.Enough of that

RELATIONSHIP
Yeah,it've been a while to talk about this or unofficially feels awkward for me to even say it.
Yes,almost a year since I'm single and seems I having a good life then.But, sometimes seeing the other couples made me jealous.And missing him.

Idk act why out of blue I feeling these kind of things.

Since me and him broke up,I try to just not thinking having a new bf.And that's maybe,I made myself not too attached to boys.Studying in Egypt make it worst,with the environment itself.I'm kind of made a gap between the boys and everything just awkward.Even I dont ever remember my own batch.Act I don't give an effort to even know the name of boys of my batch.

Anyway after a while seeing him,he have changed so much which more religious than before.Besides,he already studying overseas.Good one for him.Alhamdulillah.
Yeah,suppose that what I called friendship.I bet my feelings already over.No lovey-dovey,just friends.Eventhough we share many memories throughout high school,we're cool for now.
Sure that was a very good memories back then.I'll never forget.Maybe him too

Chill chill chill

Old stories people

Here comes the reality

I try to enjoy my life.Having fun and collecting memories with friends and family.But I admit I do get lonely lately.I dont even know why.I found myself watching love stories,quotes,stalking couples.Huhhh?What is wrong with myself.Hormones mungkin T.T

You know sarinja-maday couple? Go google them.Omg,they're like super awesome sweet couple.Their ldr can made someone just stalking their videos and pictures the whole day.Fangirling over them and me stupidly wishing I can just be like them one day in a good way.

Anyway

Sometimes,I wish I have one but I dont ever ready.Met the wrong guys made me think twice.Feeling scare,cautious and hesitating.

I dont want to have a relationship just because I feel lonely and bored.That's all what school kids did.

How lame is that for a reason to begin a relationship,right?Pity them for who still believe that.Those kind will not ever long-lasting.

Taking care of this and that.Up,down,right and left.Briefly, still not the right time.The urge to have a boyfriend should wait.

Believing I shouldn't having a relationship in the first place if we dont ever have true feelings toward each other

Sumpah lame.Whatever lah 

but these quotes :)

'I want a relationship where we can act like idiots, talk about the most random stuff, share music, and never get tired of each other'

Finally,I can do something for what I've been thinking in mind.

Terkeluar semua.Heeeee.

Keep calm and wait.Believe in Allah,there'll be our time :)

tuesday

:)

Assalamualaikum

My 1st entry. Hi :) Done deleting the old one and got a new one

(Y)
For my own privacy though.
Didn't expect to have followers,so I'll try not to ever exposed you to others.Promise *

Basically,here I am at Alex 3.19 am.Fully awake and doing all these blog things while waiting for Subuh.

My spring breaks just started recently.2 weeks man!Exactly the same duration for winter break.and I have no plan to go anywhere.Sumpah bosan T.T

That's why my body-clock gettin messed up.Anyway, the awkwardness level for me to blogging risen.A longggggggggggg time , a year maybe? have a love-hate relationship with blogging.

him and etc.Okay,cerita lama.Ignore that lah fatin

Forget all those stupid things.New and fresh start.Insya-Allah. :)